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1 February 2020

Multiple Personality Disorder




I have Dissociative Identity Disorder or DID, the same thing as Multiple Personality Disorder. I have lived with it all of my life and had no idea I had it. Many people, like me, have a dissociative disorder and live normal lives and have no idea they have one. They may struggle with many problems in life, but they rationalize all their problems away and learn to cope and deal with life on a daily basis.


Dissociation is a process in where a person disconnects from themselves in order to deal with trauma. It is completely normal and anyone who has had any kind of trauma has experienced it. However, for people who have experienced extreme abuse, they form a dissociative disorder. A dissociative disorder does not mean there is something wrong with you, as some might believe, it just signals a need to dissociate in normal everyday life in order to continue to function.

God designed dissociative identities as a protective mechanism to help people continue to function after extreme trauma. It’s a psychological mechanism that allows the human mind to hide away traumatic memories from the conscious mind. It is actually a gift from God to preserve the human mind from trauma. Unfortunately, Satan has also use dissociation to his advantage. He has used dissociation as a tool to create alternate personalities that can be a program through mind control.

As a survivor of Satanic ritual abuse, I have been trained to never speak about what has happened to me. I have actually undergone extremely traumatic abuse and torment to ensure that I would never ever speak about the things that have happened to me. I have had multiple dissociative identities created specifically to have the job to keep me quiet or to relay back to the occult that I am speaking out. I have other dissociative identities that were specifically trained to punish me if I speak out or tell their secrets, yet here I am, telling all of it because of my love for Jesus Christ.

Lucifer wants to keep us all completely clueless and in the dark that we have dissociative identities, or that we have been abused, or that our families have been involved in Satanic worship. He goes to great lengths to keep these things hidden so that we can run the programming to further his Antichrist agenda. This does not mean we are evil or that our families are evil, it just means we are subject to the sin of this world and the gods who run it.

I have come a long way in healing my dissociative identity disorder since I met Jesus Christ. Before I got saved dissociation would cause me too completely blackout while occult loyal alters would completely take over the body. When this would happen these alters would take me to places to do Satanic rituals. I have been apart of multiple covens in the area I live in and each coven would have a specific night of the week for rituals. I would also participate in the rituals for the high holy days of paganism and Satanism, as well as every national holiday.

When these occult loyal alters would take over the body I would have no idea that it ever happened. I was meeting with coven’s at Christian churches to do Satanic rituals with people who lived as Christians. I would be forced to take part in terrible things I would never consciously agree to do. Things such as human sacrifice, animal sacrifice, sexual orgies, invoking gods and goddesses, human torment, idol worship, and embodying Fallen Angels and demons.

I’m not ashamed that these things have happened in my life. Quite the contrary I am excited that I have been sent on an assignment by the Lord Jesus Christ to infiltrate the darkness and come out on the other side so that I could speak about the truth and help set the captives free. I am honored my Heavenly Father chose me and entrusted me to go into the deepest levels of the occult and be able to come out just speak the truth and to give my testimony.

You can’t imagine what pain and torment I’ve been through just to stand up for the truth and speak out about my testimony, but I would not trade one single minute of it for my old life of ignorance. Jesus Christ has transformed me from the inside out. He’s given me hope, freedom, and the greatest levels of healing that one can imagine. Yes, I grew up and a family that whored me out to Satan. I’ve been through more abuse and trauma that the human mind could never even comprehend, but all of it’s been worth it to be in the presence of God and receive His love and righteousness in my life. I’m no longer afraid of what the devil is going to do to me.

I still struggle with dissociation. For example, three months ago I went to see a doctor to get some healing for my body. I got some supplements and vitamins to get my body back into alignment, but I had parts that were trying to destroy everything the pills were doing. They were actually trying to disrupt the chemical processes in my body. Then after a week of this torment, my problems continued. I lost the bag I kept all my supplements in, even though I had left them sitting on the kitchen counter in plain sight.

My dissociative identities were programmed to keep me sick, because being sick means being controlled. It was very disheartening at first to realize I was still dissociating at this level, however, I did not let it bring me down. The enemy is desperate to shut me up, but no matter what he does I just keep diving deeper into Jesus, renouncing and repenting. As a matter of fact, everything the devil does drives me even further into repentance.

Having multiple personalities for most people looks like character traits or mood swings. For me, I might be depressed or suicidal, be extremely angry or mean, or lose regard for things of Christ completely. I might cuss and act like a rebellious teenager or get hurt by everything like a little girl. These are all dissociative alters running the body, but it looks like mood swings. There’s no visible shift or change to indicate you are switching parts. It’s completely seamless, and that’s why most people with DID don’t know they have it.

Some of the symptoms of dissociation are:
  • Forgetfulness or memory problems
  • Difficulty keeping a coherent train of thought without losing focus
  • Forgetting what you are saying or talking about
  • Inability to concentrate
  • easily distracted
  • Lack of focus
  • Zoning out or living in a fantasy world
  • Throwing yourself into a task as though nothing else existed
  • Finding yourself suddenly doing something but you don’t remember starting
  • Driving somewhere and not remembering the trip
  • The feeling of “waking up” as if you weren’t previously present
  • Being in another place or room but not knowing how you got there
  • Hearing stories about yourself that you have no memory of
  • Having an injury, sore or bruise and not knowing how it happened
  • Being in a conversation but not remembering what it’s about or what you last said
  • Missing objects, mail, email, important documents or items
  • Finding missing items in strange places
Dissociative identities are not bad or evil parts of you. They are pieces of your soul that have split off your conscious mind and fragmented by extreme trauma. These dissociative alters don’t know of any other reality outside of what they have been programmed to know and the trauma they have experienced. They were created at very young ages and are therefore emotionally immature. Often times they don’t even get an option to understand the saving grace of Jesus Christ. They need compassion and mercy, and Jesus wants nothing more than to rescue them from the hell they’ve been living in. He knows they have chosen to be loyal to the occult because the only alternative was pain or death. He has nothing but grace for these dissociative identities.

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